PLAYING GOD

note: this could be terribly controversial and I really don' t want to hear how I am wrong and or how ppl that commit suicide are going to hell... Thanks

Playing God

Looking lost…
feeling alone…
Wandering in a sea of people every day.
Knowing death brings hope,
but fearing the thought of leaving my secure home.

Just a knife,
a blade,
a gun,
a rope…
any would do
to take me to the home I long for.

I know that in death I have a promise,
and in life only pain.
But could I live with myself,
throughout eternity,
knowing I played God
and He let me win.